Okay this is a bit difficult to talk about. @Pyro Pete if its against forum rules please remove. We are mostly men on this forum and lets face it we dont talk about emotions. Is there anybody else here with Mental health issues/difficulties. Since the age of 13. Im now 24. Ive spent my life fighting to survive. I have been suicidal many many many times. With numerous attempts upon my life. Obviously i failed as im sat here typing this now. I have had very limited input from our overstretched and underfunded mental health professionals. Other than a leaflet and a few pills. I know this is a fireworks forum and not a mental health one. This forum though over the last few months has helped distract myself lots! From the inevitable. But as with everything else I feel the dark clouds forming This time of year is difficult for me all the added stress of trying to ensure that family and friends are happy. My 2 year old daughter had surgery on 1st october to try and allow her to walk. She is still recovering and we wont know how sucessful the surgery was for at least another 12 months. Bones take a long time to heal apparently. Im not looking for tea and sympathy. I just wonder if im the only one to feel this way.